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[02 Jan 2008|01:37am] wow forgot about this am snef

[23 Jul 2007|03:25am] Whats up all you crazy cats out there? How is this life treating you, Is the game being fair? Haven't seen many people in a while. I do Disappear. My birthdays coming up in 5 days. I haven't been doing much just working and trying to train. I am teaching myself I am tired of wasting money on things I already know how to do. I plan on paying off my warrants, I am going to Austin Soon for the company I work for. And Oni-Con Is coming up. > I will talk to you Cats later. 3.Majkia : am snef

[19 Apr 2007|12:33pm] "You had a hundred billion chances and ways to have avoided today," a snarling Cho says on video. "But you decided to spill my blood. You forced me into a corner and gave me only one option. The decision was yours. Now you have blood on your hands that will never wash off." -cho am snef

[16 Feb 2007|08:53pm] wide eyed sleepers death in motion daylight creepers wearing all night pain bleeding moments spilling over non-existing as they crawl out into a world that calls them real sign the contract it's the final act matter of fact better take a step back relax the show must go on no one so on and so on as if under mass hypnosis the wide eyed sleepers fall into mass graves they'll feel safer in the dirt their own opinions won't be heard if asked could you decide what any man is worth sign the contract it's the final act matter of fact better take a step back relax the show must go on no one so on and so on could you decide? could you decide? could you decide? could you decide?... they steal it with a handshake seal it with a smile it feels like an earthquake treats you like a child defeats you with your mistakes leaves you in denial deceives you in the first place lied to all the while they can't see anymore how their wide eyes have made them blind in spite of themselves am snef

[08 Jan 2007|11:41am] Theres nothing you can say Nothing you can do Theres nothing in between You know the truth Nothing left to face Theres nothing left to lose Nothing takes your place When they say Youre not that strong Youre not that weak Its not your fault And when you climb up to your hill Up to your place I hope youre well Theres nothing left to prove Theres nothing I wont do Theres nothing like the pain I feel for you Nothing left to hide Nothing left to feel I am always here When they say Youre not that strong Youre not that weak Its not your fault And when you climb up to your hill Up to your place I hope youre well What you want What you lost What you had What is gone is over What you got What you love What you need What you have is real Its not enough Its not enough Its not enough Its not enough, Im sorry Its not enough Its not enough Its not enough Its not enough... When they say Youre not that strong Youre not that weak Its not your fault And when you climb up to your hill Up to your place I hope youre well Its not enough No Its not enough Its not enough am snef

[06 Jan 2007|12:10am] the pain enhances the misery swells im screamin' ya name from a mountain in hell im so lonely the grounds above me it seems as if no one cares to love me maybe im crazy, addicted to pain maybe the cocain destroyed my brain private conversations with kurt cobain im drownin' my fears in the acid rain numonic intentions take ova your mind like leaping from a building for the 50th time stay away from drugs little boys and girls unless u wanna live in the under world (the under world the under world unless u wanna live in the under world) the sun goes down as the darkness prevails loss of conversation with jazzabell shes so high always treatin' her nose her blood runs black when her cycle flows maybe im psyched out for lettin' her down knowin' she done been with every man in town maybe im hellbound for living insane im drowning my pain in the acid rain numonic intentions take ova your mind like leaping from a building for the 50th time stay away from drugs little boys and girls unless u wanna live in the under world (the under world the under world unless u wanna live in the under world) All of the heartaches and all of the pain all of the tear drops from acid rain one drop gone cuz they think im insane its all in my mind with the use of cocaine like drinkin prefusily and flying a plane so intoxicated i cant stay in my lane private conversations with kurt cobain drownin' my fears in the acid rain am snef

Life [23 Dec 2006|09:33pm] Life's a fucked up place, and all I know is what was taught to me as a kid. Nothing is free in life, even if it's given to you, you'll have to pay it back one way or another. You will hear the same thing over and over again, even daily. With nothing to do about it. You'll have to either sit and deal with it, or try your best to walk away. I don't understand why people cant just leave shit in the past in the past. And why our child hoods couldn't be the best. My brother told me his dream for his life. It is to take my brother and myself away from this place and just have fun, never grow up since we didn't have a childhood, I love him to death, but we have our times. Just mines been going on for most my life. am snef

[06 Dec 2006|07:01am] From all my friends on livejournal, I need the following. Your name(fullname) date of birth, eye color, haircolor (all natural) a small profile of yourself (anything from the things you like, where you work, what you do for fun. number and religion. 3.Majkia : am snef

[06 Dec 2006|03:36am] I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but I remember everything what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts I cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else I am still right here what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt if I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way am snef

[30 Nov 2006|06:03am] So I think I have Pneumonia, I have been sick for about a month now, and now my lungs hurt when I drink and breathe. 1.Majkia : am snef

[18 Nov 2006|02:33pm] Alone inside my mind across the room I catch your eye then you wander in my direction my left you sit beside so hot you make me want to hide hide from my own fragile torture I can feel you now I can taste it now Overcome that I'm your temptation I never dreamed it true I can feel you now I can taste it now Overcome that I'm your temptation I'm crushed With just the thought that I made you blush The lust inside I cry Without the tears running down my eyes On your knees you beg for weakness Temptaion close at hand Falling for you I didn't plan Pleasure seekers taking over I can feel you now I can taste it now Overcome that I'm your temptation I never dreamed it true I can feel you now I can taste it now Overcome that I'm your temptation I'm crushed With just the thought that I made you blush I'm crushed enoughto make it bleed with just the thought that I made you blush I'm crushed enough I'm on my knees with just the thought that I made you blush I'm crushed enough to raze in all with just the thought that I made you blush I'm crushed enough for me to fall with just the thought that I made you blush am snef

[12 Nov 2006|06:42pm] I wish I stayed hom lastnight. am snef

[06 Nov 2006|05:40am] Words come easy Behind a screen When there's no interface to face To be seen King of Insects You eat your own Atop an anthill You call your throne Kingdom of one So unaware As one-by-one your subjects Vanish into air Chatter to the wind Make your decree And save your venom For the ones who disagree Your castle walls are falling Your body's frail Your window on the world Is minuscule in scale Burrow deep now Escape the light Heaven forbid you have to face The ones you slight am snef

[03 Nov 2006|06:41pm] Life is a bunch of bull-shit. I am caring less and less everyday, I wake up, Look at the sky, see out my window, walk the first few steps out of bed. Its nothing to me but a game. I dont care if I win or loose, either way you will meet the "Game Over" at the end. I want to fade out gracefully, but I am still alive to face another day. I have no money, if I loose my house oh well. If I dont eat I wont mind, its just a quicker way to end this game. I dont want to play anymore, my hands hurt, my eyes burn, my head is spinning. Why cant god tell when to kill things, does he enjoy watching people suffer? I think he does, thats what turns him on, thats what makes him god, nothing else. 1.Majkia : am snef

[30 Oct 2006|05:22pm] So, I have work in an hour, I am tired very tired. I want to lay down in my bed all day. But its not possible. I cant call in sick either. I am waiting for my paycheck, I am waiting to have money, I wont spend any of it, only 300 bucks for rent the rest I am saving. I am tired of being behind in money. Because I am being a dumb ass. am snef

[27 Oct 2006|01:07am] You sink your teeth in bite the blood that drains the life inside of me and fills your soul with love and hate and all those things you need to breathe. My body dies but still my soul remains eternally in search of Caspian waves and shallow graves explain why me? I watched the sky bleed grey with see through shades of violent bloody stains and felt the evil prime and wicked start a course straight through my veins. I'm so alive, my skin so cold and fake I close my eyes I know that now's the time to take my chance with death and realize. So mute and beautiful to me a promise kept on high, an angelic look at life through open eyes. (Sunrise) I will avenge (Sunset) I can't pretend, and fills your soul with love and hate and all those things you need to breathe. (Sunrise) I will avenge (Sunset) I can't pretend, my soul remains eternally in search of Caspian waves and shallow graves explain why Sunrise) I will avenge (Sunset) I can't pretend, (Sunrise) I wont forget this vein (Sunset) attempt and promise kept, just one more night to make up for the loss of love and time here comes the sun to rid this world of see through blood and swollen light. Sunrise, sunset The last sunrise The last sunrise The last sunrise The last sunrise (Sunrise) I will avenge (Sunset) I can't pretend, and fills your soul with love and hate and all those things you need to breathe. (Sunrise) I will avenge (Sunset) I can't pretend, eternally in search of Caspian waves and shallow graves explain why am snef

[23 Oct 2006|12:33am] So I went to Oni Con, thank you Freddy, Jesus, John, Gus, and everyone else who was there, it was a great night. 4.Majkia : am snef

[19 Oct 2006|09:49pm] Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear Sealed with lies through so many tears Lost from within, pursuing the end I fight for the chance to be lied to again You will never be strong enough You will never be good enough You were never conceived in love You will not rise above [Chorus:] They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me But through my tears breaks a blinding light Birthing a dawn to this endless night Arms outstretched, awaiting me An open embrace upon a bleeding tree Rest in me and I'll comfort you I have lived and I died for you Abide in me and I vow to you I will never forsake you [Chorus] [Chorus] Rest in me and I'll comfort you I have lived and I died for you Abide in me and I vow to you I will never forsake you [Chorus] am snef

[17 Oct 2006|04:12pm] So,I have thought about it and I have come to. If I dont keep this job for atleast 8 months I am going to travel... Get a job like a friends of mine's dad, who works on ships repairing things and travel the sea's. I want to see new things. am snef

[13 Oct 2006|12:28pm] One more time and you'll be dead At least I think that's what they said Forty days won't break a man It was a bullet in his head There's something in the... Something in the way you were The pain so wrong my friend Revolution...revolution man Imagine all the people One more time and you'll be dead At least I think that's what they said Forty days won't break a man It was a bullet in his head Listen while I load my gun He said to me Something 'bout a chosen one It's comin' back to me Watch him while I taste the sun He said to me Something 'bout a chosen one You'll never be One last time your medicine Swallow hard and take it in Lucy's in the sky again Trippin' on her diamonds am snef

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